On 5/1,Daddy and I got to hear your heart beat for the very first time! 

I was very nervous leading up to this appointment because I thought I was going to have blood work done. Now,I know that sounds crazy. I am deathly afraid off needles,but I am trying to convince myself otherwise because being pregnant,I have to get over that fear. 

Austin went to work early that morning and met me at Dr.Holme's office for our appointment. I had an exam,cultures done,and we got to hear our sweet baby's heart beat for the very first time. I thought I would bawl but it was different. I got such an overwhelming feeling of happiness hearing the heart beat. I was so happy to hear our sweet baby's heart beating strong. I believe it was 169! My next appointment is May 18th and I can't wait to hear my little peanuts heart beat again. I find myself listening to the video Austin recorded of the heart beat atleast 2 or 3 times a day! He was so excited to share it with friends and family after the appointment. It was so sweet. 

A baby fills a place in your heart you never knew was empty. <3

Originally my first appointment with Dr.Holmes was April 15th,but since I have been so nauseous and sick,my first appointment was today! My Mom,Shaylin and Aubree came with me. I went in feeling nervous and I didn't know what to expect. I have been to plenty of OB appointments with my sister in laws,but it is so different when you are going there for yourself and your baby. We sat in the waiting room until my name was called. The nurse weighed me,took my height and then led us back to a room. She took my vitals and then we were left to wait for Dr.Holmes. He came in,we talked,a rush of excitement came over me and the moment I have been waiting for came,I saw a little flutter across the screen. That was my sweet little peanut,alive in my stomach. The pressure from the ultra sound machine wand hurt a little bit,but I wanted to stare at the screen all day.

I am measuring at 7 weeks and 3 days and my due date is November 18th. 

We announced that Baby Walton is due to arrive in November on Instagram and Facebook and we both have received such love and support from our friends and family. I am so thankful! 

I have been super nauseous so Dr.Holmes gave me Diclegis. I am praying it will help me feel better so I am able to do more things. My next appointment is April 24th! 

Mommy loves you, little peanut.

On  the 13th of March, I found out I was PREGNANT! Over the previous few weeks, I had been feeling sick and nauseous but I never thought anything about it. I remember a specific day I was driving home from work, nauseous, sweating, and on the verge of vomiting. I was stuck in traffic, so there was no way I could pull over. I started crying and I called my mom for her comfort. I walked in the door and went straight to our bed. I didn't even say hi to Austin, I just knew I needed to lay down to feel better. I finally started feeling better, but still never thought anything about it. A few weeks later, my Mom and I were shopping and I told her I was feeling nauseous. She asked me then if I thought I was pregnant. I told her no, because honestly, it hadn't even crossed my mind. The next day I went to work, and again, the nauseous feeling came back. I then started to think to myself that maybe I was pregnant. The drive to Walgreens from work was the longest drive of my life. I walked in Walgreens bought a pregnancy test, bobby pins, and an oil spray for my hair. I drove home and went straight into the bath room. The results were in, I saw those...TWO PINK LINES. They showed up immediately. I went into panic mode and I didn't even know what to think. I called Careisse crying and she was on her way, my mom was getting a massage and Austin was on his way back home from St. John's. I texted Austin asking him when he would be home and to please hurry. I called him and told him that I had taken a pregnancy test. I think he was in shock because he was speechless. I wanted him home right that second. My Mom finally was out of her massage and I called her crying letting her know that she was right about me being pregnant. She was calm and very loving when she came over.  Careisse and my Mom stayed with me for a while. I am so grateful for them and I always will be. I fell asleep after they left, and was asleep when Austin got home. I honestly was nervous to talk to him about it, even though I had no reason to be.

My first appointment is April 15th and I am anxiously waiting for it. I feel like I have already been waiting an eternity. I think I am about 8 weeks along. If you know me, you know I absolutely love ice cream, cake, etc. but now that I am pregnant, I want no part in the sugary business. All I ever want it salty foods and I am constantly wanting Taco Bell. I have been very nauseous but have only thrown up twice. I have been experiencing tender breast, cramping, the whole nine yards. I know that it will be worth it in the end when I hold my sweet baby. This pregnancy was not planned, but I feel if it is a dream come true. A mother is all I have ever wanted to be. Austin and are excited for our little family to be growing by two feet and one heart. Baby Walton is due to arrive November 2014! <3

focus.

I have severe anxiety and I truly let it and life get in the way of my happiness at times. I sit here and think to myself that I really need to focus on what really matters in life. I need to focus on being a better me.

As of this month, Austin and I have lived together for one year! It has hard to wrap my head around it. Time has flown by us! I feel at times I fail at being a "wife." Some days I don't feel like doing the dishes or doing the laundry. Heck, some days I don't even wear make up. I want to focus on being a better "house wife." I have started to cook more, which I am honestly very proud of myself. It isn't always the most delicious meal, it may even be a little salty, and I may light a paper towel on fire, but hey...you learn as you go. Right?! Austin is a very picky eater, so I am constantly asking him what he thinks of the meal. Poor guy. If you have any delicious recipes for picky eaters, send them my way! Please...

I have struggled with my weight for quite some time now and I FINALLY have come to the realization that I am sick of it and am ready to change. I got a membership to Fitness Works and have found that my favorite class is Body Jam. I have yet to venture to working out on the floor, but plan to soon. We were in Florida last week on vacation, so my eating was not that great. I came home and went to the grocery store and bought ALL healthy foods. $167 of it! Shoot me. I really need to learn how to coupon. Anyways, I already can tell such a difference in the way I feel since I have started eating clean. Those migraines from not drinking Dr.Pepper 24/7 really get to you. I am focusing on me and what is best for my body. My body is a temple and I intend to treat it that way.

I won't even get into the details of what my family has been through these past few years, but I am learning to "let go" of things and to really focus on my relationship with each and every one of my family members. My family is number one and so very precious to me.

Here is to focusing on what really matters! ♥

fam{ily}

 As I am getting older, I am realizing now more than ever, just how amazing family is. I am constantly feeling blessed and grateful for my loved ones. Sometimes I wonder how my parents do it, yet they continue to love us crazy kids unconditionally and put up with us! I may not tell them or show them enough, but they mean the absolute world to me. They are my biggest supporters, my examples, and I love them to the moon and back. 28 years of marriage, 4 kids, 2 grandkids, memories, laughs, tear, trials...they have been through it all! They show the greatest example of strength and for that, I will always be grateful.

 I am so grateful that Austin puts up with my mood swings and comforts me when I need it. I love the life we have built together. We may only have Sophie now, but I love my little family more than anything.  I truely have learned that love conquers all...no matter what, it does. I am so blessed to have Austin in my life and I am grateful for his hard work and love.

Last but not least, I am so happy that everyone has accepted me in Austin's family. For Christmas this year, most gifts were to Austin and I. That truely warmed my heart. I am grateful for the relationships I have made with his family and I look forward to making many more memories with them!

I often just lay in my bed for an extra few minutes each morning thinking about how blessed I really am. I have a family who has been through many trials, yet we manage to stay close with one another. My family is beyond forgiving and I swear to you, my own Mother would bail me out if jail if I committed a crime. We have been through individual trials and trials as a family; the support is always there. I complain about work to my sweet boyfriend often, but I need to readjust my attitude about it. I may not be exactly where I want to be, but I am making money that is helping towards bills, groceries, etc. When I am having a rough day at work, I always think of my Dad. Ever since I can remember, my Dad has been the hardest working man I know. I may not tell him enough, but that has and always will be a huge example to me. He may be tired and worn out, but he continues to work his hardest to provide and I will forever be grateful for his unconditional love towards his family. My sweet Austin Lee, oh how I could go on about the love I have for him. He wakes up early each morning with no complaints about going to work. I appreciate him always thinking of what’s best and providing for us.  I drive him crazy sometimes, but he continues to show me his love and never gives up on me. I love the little life we have built together and I am beyond excited to see what is in store for our future. I am so blessed to have him in my life and he will forever have my heart. I can’t forget about my little boogers, Brixton Kash and Aubree Jane. As I watch them grow, it makes me realize how precious life really is. This is a harsh world and I wish I could somehow make them stay little forever so they don’t have to experience hardships and be exposed to evil. I want them to be able to look up to me and know “Aunt Sha Sha” will always be there for them. I am the most sensitive person that you probably will ever meet, but I am grateful to have been raised with three older brothers who have taught be not to take crap from no one! I blame my feisty-ness on them, but it is definitely not something I am ashamed of. I love how I have such a different relationship with each of my brothers. All in all, I am one blessed girl and I am GRATEFUL!

Meet the newest addition to our little family, Sophie!

 

 

We have had this precious little booger for about two weeks now. It is crazy how much I already love her. If you ask anyone, they would say I am obsessed. I admit it. I am so obsessed with her. I love her little face so much. She is such a mommy's girl and never leaves my side. Aside from her little accidents and waking up at 2:00 almost every morning, I think her Daddy secretly loves her.

 

I love my Sophie girl.